Friday, February 3, 2012

Faith is an Amazing Thing

I never grew up with any religious background, the first time I had really dove into learning anything about religion was during the three years I worked in an office with these two amazing people who are Christians. I often found intrigued by their stories and faith, having never heard much about Christianity I grew to have more questions and often was found in their office sitting back and hearing the answers to my questions. I enjoyed this very much, but after leaving the office while pregnant with my middle child, I rarely gave faith much thought again.

That is until I was going through an extreme case of depression, for days I could do barely anything but sleep, even while taking care of my kids I just wanted to sleep. It was difficult to enjoy my life in the ways I always had. Of course the depression was set on by some financial issues and for some reason I couldn't find my positive during these times. After about three days of being in a funk, I felt this presence. It was a warm feeling and my mind instantly went to God.

I found this rather creepy to be honest with you, I was  little freaked out as well as a little intrigued. That day I put my faith into God in a small way and things seemed to get better from there. I, once again, forgot about faith, was doing pretty good with positive thinking and life was rolling along. Then I was hit with news that just made my stomach clamp up and my heart sink. News that I heard wasn't anything anyone wishes to ever hear, however, it was one of those situations where I had no choice but to remain positive and reassure those that were being affected.

I turned to God that night, laying in my bed wondering if I should even allow myself to fall asleep, I prayed. I prayed for strength for the person who is mainly suffering and strength for me to be there the way I should be. The next day everything changed, there was a warmth in the house, and in the middle of the day I was outside when the sun peeked out from behind a cloud almost as if it were shining down on only me and I remembered ..... I prayed for strength last night - that is why this person did what they did today and that is why I feel so much at ease today.

Thank you Dear Lord for answering my prayers, thank you for helping me find strength and the person who needs it most find strength, without this faith I happened upon again, I don't know where I would be today. So, a girl raised with zero religious background, never really having not believed but never have exactly "believed" in God, found faith and I think this girl will continue to pray because it really is helping with the extremely sensitive and tough situation that is going on.